no. 99 nice!

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It's, I must say, a nice week -- from tweaking my blog's layie until this point that I'm writing another entry.

First, there was less workload for me as I've completed one task the previous week.

Second, I got my pay and my bonus. I'm supposed to be filthy rich this week until the next pay but thank you tax, you owe me a lot. Because of the bonus, two of my shuttlemates, Remar and Tin, treated us to a sumptuous dine out. :) Life's sweet.

Third, I've managed to write a blog entry after five months! It's just a short one, enough to announce my comeback.

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no.98 after five months

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This starts a new chapter in my life -- be it cyber or real. I guess. A point wherein I want to rise from a flat line.

Life has been constant for the past months (Well, except for my special someone that makes each day distinct from the rest). Simply spelled -- WORK. Life changed when I started working where I am now. And it even changed a LOT when I was moved to a 15:00-0:00 shift. I wake up, I go to work. I work. At the end of the shift, company shuttle drops me home. And then I sleep. And then I wake up just the same to end up doing the same. For months.

This... Until I longed for a "life". This is what I realized after telling my boss "gusto ko ng buhay..." I was trying to request to move me to an earlier shift but to no avail I guess. That was Friday.

Pondered.

Saturday. Maybe it was a huge step. Felt like I was a dormant volcano for the longest time. Eruption. Felt like there was a need to do again those things I love doing. Those that it seemed like I gave up already. Maybe, this time, try the other way around. Not allowing work to always get in the way instead of making work an excuse.

Be alive again.

And so I am finally back.

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no.97 it's time...

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Hello. It's already tiring to say that after bla bla bla months I'm back bla I'm writing again bla bla. Haha!

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96. first for 2011

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Hey, it's time to update! Unannounced hiatus -- I'm good at it -- once again. Wasn't able to write since my birthday post last year. Apart from the previous years, as you can see, no bye-2010-hello-2011 post as well. Not that I'm busy, which may be partly true at times (yes, partly and at times lol), but more of 'cos I'm lazy to update. Too lazy that I can only "easy-blog" through Tumblr, and micro-blog through Twitter. There... But yo, zzup I'm back, errr or at least for this post.

First, I've finally given up THIS URL and embraced the being of my blog itself. New URL is obviously -- merieisms.blogspot.com -- Merie's musings and whereabouts, more than what you see and hear of me.

Boy, I miss blogging so I might end up writing a long, photo-extensive post. *winks*

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2010 Yearly Birthday Post

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This year's birthday is TOTALLY DIFFERENT. Didn't have my usual celebrations. Didn't have any pakains. No something from the orig4 (my bestfriends). Not a dinner with my family. Or a simple salu-salo with my youth ministry. Maybe 'cos this is the first time that I have a job on my birthday. The past birthdays mostly I was a student and the past two years I was a professional bum. Or maybe 'cos I met new people -- the people who I am with constantly everyday. Or simply because yearly it's just different, but this year with a TOTALLY, but just like most of my birthdays, it's MEMORABLE.

My birthday fell on a weekday, Tuesday.

The day before, I thought my birthday wouldn't be good, and then the night before, I thought it will be alright.

The night before...

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94. this is how I define non-peak

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Hi, I miss you. Forgive me for the unannounced hiatus. It's been over a month since I last wrote here. I've been lurking a lot in my Tumblr. I'm not fit enough to say that I was 'really busy' but let me just say that I have been doing a lot of things lately. And by 'a lot' I just don't mean work, more so, it's saddening that it rarely involves church stuff now. Did I just say saddening? I did. That signals another blog entry. But for now, I would dedicate this entry to defining 'non-peak' -- a term that we could lay side by side with off-peak, not-so-busy and even the three-letter word FUN. Actually, there's a lot more than these synonymous words. And I'm up to lay them down here.

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93. cos I badly want to start anew but there's really no need to it

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This feeling of wanting to just erase everything unpleasant and remain those that are luscious to my recalling. But NO.

There have been a lot of mistakes, shortcomings, transgressions and yes, regrets, that I'm afraid of the possible consequences I'm about to face a second from now to a second before I die. I've been so hard-headed, so stubborn, so stupid that these thoughts that keep on rushing in for the past days give me pains and aches to every vein where the blood passes through, not to mention the physical throbbing headache I've been feeling for four days now. A time would really come for these thoughts. I'm still human. I'm just glad I surpassed it without thinking of killing my delicate self.

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92. today's a holiday so i found time to write this entry

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Time to wrap up June with some feel-good entry (I really don't know if this entry will make me feel good after writing it, haha).

First things first, I wanna mention the name President Noynoy Aquino, aka PNoy, here just cos he's the reason why I don't have work today cos he had been inaugurated and is now Philippine's president. Wow. I must be really getting old. I've been under 5 administrations.

I'm supposed to write this entry last Sunday but things got worst so I just decided to sleep the depression away and succumb on eating sweets and chocolates.

I have made myself clear many times already that I'm a frustrated musician, particularly a frustrated pianist. And I blame no other than myself as well for this frustration. Here's the story. I started attending piano lessons as early as 7 yrs old and I really can't remember when I started to decide to just skip the classes and eventually told my Mom that I don't want to study music anymore.


That's a photo of me during my first recital. I played 3 piano pieces including Minuet in G.

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91. incoherent

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I just feel like writing. I'm done with my project and I'm not in the mood just yet to go back to the normal pace of working. I've been thinking a lot lately. No. Let me prolong that. I have always been thinking a lot. But lately I have been thinking a lot more. It has been sort of my coping mechanism whenever I feel like my life is about to go downhill. But my life isn't about to go downhill, really. I am not depressed either. Just 'that feeling'. Or maybe, I am confused. Okay enough, actually there is this joy inside of me that at times I can not contain. Let me go back and maybe reiterate and end up repeating a sentence that was already stated. Lately I have been thinking a lot more. Welcome to my random thoughts and musings.

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90. I wanna be in the movie.

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May I just remind myself that my first official blog entry here is about Passion Manila 2008. And now I'm about to write about Passion Manila again.

Passion World Tour Manila 2010

(cr: 268blog)

To reiterate what Louie Giglio said, WORDS FAIL. I honestly don't know what words to use to write about such an amazing event. SOLD OUT event. My mind is in a rattle (the good kind of rattle) whenever I go back to that wonderful night. I really don't know. I've been having a hangover and is still under the aftermath since 2008 and Passion Manila 2010 hit me again. It was again an amazing May 25, 2010 night at the BIG DOME ARANETA COLISEUM, where 10,000 young people gathered to bring glory to the only One who deserves it. 10,000 young people that shouts HIS FAME. 10,000 young people that lifted up their hands, hearts and souls to the only One who should have them. 10,000 young people including me and the members of YU2G.

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89. I voted cos I can

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I woke up early despite being deprived of sleep for I know that this day marks the day of transformation. I wanted to be an instrument of change and I did. I have a say from this day onwards. I voted cos I can.

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88. it's about time....again...

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C'mmon. Admit it. We just can't prevent the big-headedness-feeling-inside when we are commended, most especially by someone superior to you. In my case, today, I had a one-on-one video meeting with my manager ('cos he's stationed in Paris) early evening. It's about our productivity and performance for our first encounter with the 'earning season'. The meeting turned out short and WELL. As a whole, our team has an EXCELLENT performance! Kudos! Individually, I got commended (I'm feeling big-headed now) that I performed well quantitatively and quality-wise. In terms of quality, I even belong to the top 10. This is all GLORY TO HIM. I know His Spirit is with me as I ask for the guidance before I start hitting Ctrl + N on the keyboard of my TC. I pray that I push through with this record.

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out of the usual

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Last Thursday (April 22, 2010), I decided to accept Julo's invitation for me to go with him @ Cafe Saguijo where Midsummer Band was gonna release their EP album. I decided so just to see life outside my usual four walls. I end my shift at 9PM and still I did go just for the favor asked by one 'good' friend.

I'm hearing their songs being played on the background while waiting for the program to start and then I anticipated their perf. Their kind-of-music isn't alien to my eardrums, and I must say it's something that I would include to the vast and occasional combo of music pool I dive in. There were other perfs from other invited bands as well. Not bad at all. It's somehow nostalgic to listen to those kinds of music again. I deleted most of the files already to make room for the additions. The kind of emotions that the music I've heard last Thursday brought me is repelling the emotions of the music I'm so much into at the moment is bringing me. Whether if my taste of music became better or not, I don't know but one thing's definite -- the kind of music I listen to nowadays gives me JOY and HOPE. Oh before I forget, I love the place. It's like double-purpose. I like the photos posted, the posters, ok I just love the interiors.

cr: akosisoulscrpio

Midsummer -- I've been seeing it on my Tumblr dashboard regularly. Thanks to the blogs that I follow there. Even though I didn't get the chance to hear them live, I still give them my kudos and salutes for coming up with what I can classify as GOOD MUSIC. Upon hearing their songs, 'twas like hearing a foreign band that's new to my ears. They don't sound local or OPMish. It was only because I 'kinda know' them that I know they are still under the OPM umbrella.

On the other side, it was also fun seeing Tumblr users meet each other in flesh. I'm a Tumblr user for almost 2 years now and yet I never experienced a real 'Tumblr meet-up'. I chose to be quiet on my own comfortable Tumblr seat and from time-to-time interact with the same persons I follow on the Blogger world. Yet, because I'm often on Julo's shots posted on his Tumblr, I was recognized by Kath. It was nice meeting her in person as well as some of her posts happen to land on my dash. Teeheehee, I really find her cute. ^^

cr: kaththecrapout

That night, for a few, I felt alone and yet I realized a lot of things that made me sad and proud of myself at the same time. No regrets of going there. After all, its not everyday that I jump out of the usual.

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the SUPER longweekend, let me blog about it...

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I have no idea if I'm fit enough to finish this. But it would definitely be a long one. Allow me my dear blog, it's been a while since the last time I was in a real pensive mood. A mix of posts from the different angles of my life, this would be it. A reader (if ever there'd be) would know a LOT about me on this post. There would be 'firsts' and sorta revelations.

the SUPER long WEEKEND! Let me blog about it.

DISCLAIMER: TOO LONG.

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more than just eggs and bunnies

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Today is Easter Sunday, a day when Easter eggs and bunnies come to play, when kids and young adults alike enjoy egg hunting, but have they thought of today's true essence?

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